I'm Sorry, I Really Sincerely Apologize

I feel terrible that I've forgotten about this blog. I don't know what I was thinking but I'm back again; for good.

I'm sorry for the few of you who read this blog and only see the dark, sad side of me. I know there aren't many of you, but this literally is the only place where I can reveal things as stupid as it may seem.

I'd rather not update you on my life. Nothings really changed. Everything for the most part is the same or has gotten worse. I still love him, but he doesn't know or for the most part even care. I try to move on but nothing seems to be working, so I've just been shrugging it off for the most part.

I really don't know what it is.

I feel like I'm losing myself again. As if I'm turning into this person that I swore I'd never be; it's inevitable.

Spring Break is in a few weeks. I'm not excited. I'm more than likely just going to stay home and depress myself.

I'm trying to tell myself I'm stronger than this. Physically I am, but when I have nothing to do you are all I think about.

I bet I sound insane.