so obviously as you may have noticed, my last entry got messed up. lol I guess that's the true essence of using blog on my phone !
Anywho, my day has been great so far. I got 100 on a math test which is completely unlike me. For once I feel like a college student. The pressure has started and I'm ready. Today I have no seminars or workshops so I might go to the mall or play tennis. Things have become more relaxed now that these 5 weeks are almost done. I have made so many friends, especially my roommates that I love and care about. I do feel like I have a UAlbany family :)
Happily, I am coming home tomorrow for the weekend. Hopely Veronica can stop being a Mexican and chill with us for once ! I don't care what anyone says Rando is the best and I treasure his friendship. I don't know any other person that texts me in the morning (besides Kwame) just to say Hi or have a good day. I love my Randushi ! Kwame's also amazing. 4 months yesterday and surely more to come ! I love my boyfriend :)
So I'm just anticipating this weekend and the few weeks to come. I'll keep you posted :)
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Numb
It always seems that I need to catch up on things. Events, Times, just everything.
Last weekend I went home to take a break. I really needed to just have part of my old life back. I enjoyed seeing my boyfriend, hanging out with the crew (Randushi, Maria, Mike), and seeing my family. I cant wait to go home this weekend.
You know the feeling of when you know your right, but in the end your not satisfied with being so? I feel that right now. I'm sad at the way things have played out the last couple of months. I'm sad that so many things have happened mainly because of situations that I could've handled different. As of now, I feel non-important. I dont feel like I'm asset to anyone's life except a selective few. I really hate these feelings and I just want them to vanish, but in reality things dont happen this way.
Yesterday, I was 2 seconds away from quiting the EOP program. Somethings have just pushed me to my limits and have caused me to just not want to be a part of this "family". I'm tired of this place but I know if I leave I'll never forgive myself. I'm probably dehydrated from all the tears that fell. If it weren't for the consequences I'd b
Last weekend I went home to take a break. I really needed to just have part of my old life back. I enjoyed seeing my boyfriend, hanging out with the crew (Randushi, Maria, Mike), and seeing my family. I cant wait to go home this weekend.
You know the feeling of when you know your right, but in the end your not satisfied with being so? I feel that right now. I'm sad at the way things have played out the last couple of months. I'm sad that so many things have happened mainly because of situations that I could've handled different. As of now, I feel non-important. I dont feel like I'm asset to anyone's life except a selective few. I really hate these feelings and I just want them to vanish, but in reality things dont happen this way.
Yesterday, I was 2 seconds away from quiting the EOP program. Somethings have just pushed me to my limits and have caused me to just not want to be a part of this "family". I'm tired of this place but I know if I leave I'll never forgive myself. I'm probably dehydrated from all the tears that fell. If it weren't for the consequences I'd b
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Proud To Be, EOP
It has been A LONG time since I've wrote in my blog. I'm sorry but EOP has been more than I've expected.
In every program or "structured program" I should say there are always rules one has to abid by. In Albany, being in the EOP program is close to being in jail. We have 3 classes everyday for an hour, which isnt bad at all. I love my professor's and the daily study hours and papers is only going to help me in the future. The only main problem is with the SA's. These Student Assistants as they're called give us hell. Most of them are only sophomore's and feel because they have "authority" they are better than us. Only a few of them are absolutely rude and disrespectful but a couple have their flaws. As a student, the SA's can write you up for practically anything. One girl got written up for yawning in class, another for continuing to walk when the couselor claim to have said she called her when she didnt know her name, the reasons get even more ridiculous.
Despite the complains I am proud to be EOP. Yes, you other "regular" college student may look down upon us but we actually are smart. At the University at Albany more EOP students graduate at the top of their class than regular students. I think its because they prepare us so much. I've been here for a week and I know every building, where the different complexing are and where to go in case I need help. Being in the EOP program means they pay for your Graduate, Masters or PHD Degree which makes me extremly happy. To know that I don't have to take out crazy loans makes me happy.
Yesterday we visited the capital building in which we went into the Assembly Room, Senators Room and the Governors Press room. When your actually in Albany you learn a lot about our government and the things going on. Did you know that currently in the Senate we do not have a Leuitenant, which is why none of the economic bills are being passed? The Leuitenants job is to make the final decision when there is a tie in the votes. As of now we have 31 Republicans and 31 Democrats so nothing can get done. Governor Patterson used to be the Leuitnant but since he ha snow taken office as our governor of NY he can no longer be the Leuitenant. Technically speaking we can not have a new one until the election in 2010, but Pattersons working on appointing someone, which may be unconstitutional. I know I sound like a nerd, but look at the things you learn. :)
I have only been in Albany for a week, and I am home sick. I miss my friends, my mom but most of all my boyfriend. Being away is harder than I expected, especially with a busy schedule like mine. I can't wait to come home next friday ! I can't wait to see everyone.
In every program or "structured program" I should say there are always rules one has to abid by. In Albany, being in the EOP program is close to being in jail. We have 3 classes everyday for an hour, which isnt bad at all. I love my professor's and the daily study hours and papers is only going to help me in the future. The only main problem is with the SA's. These Student Assistants as they're called give us hell. Most of them are only sophomore's and feel because they have "authority" they are better than us. Only a few of them are absolutely rude and disrespectful but a couple have their flaws. As a student, the SA's can write you up for practically anything. One girl got written up for yawning in class, another for continuing to walk when the couselor claim to have said she called her when she didnt know her name, the reasons get even more ridiculous.
Despite the complains I am proud to be EOP. Yes, you other "regular" college student may look down upon us but we actually are smart. At the University at Albany more EOP students graduate at the top of their class than regular students. I think its because they prepare us so much. I've been here for a week and I know every building, where the different complexing are and where to go in case I need help. Being in the EOP program means they pay for your Graduate, Masters or PHD Degree which makes me extremly happy. To know that I don't have to take out crazy loans makes me happy.
Yesterday we visited the capital building in which we went into the Assembly Room, Senators Room and the Governors Press room. When your actually in Albany you learn a lot about our government and the things going on. Did you know that currently in the Senate we do not have a Leuitenant, which is why none of the economic bills are being passed? The Leuitenants job is to make the final decision when there is a tie in the votes. As of now we have 31 Republicans and 31 Democrats so nothing can get done. Governor Patterson used to be the Leuitnant but since he ha snow taken office as our governor of NY he can no longer be the Leuitenant. Technically speaking we can not have a new one until the election in 2010, but Pattersons working on appointing someone, which may be unconstitutional. I know I sound like a nerd, but look at the things you learn. :)
I have only been in Albany for a week, and I am home sick. I miss my friends, my mom but most of all my boyfriend. Being away is harder than I expected, especially with a busy schedule like mine. I can't wait to come home next friday ! I can't wait to see everyone.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Real Eyes Realize
I could sit here and right a full entry about all the negative things that are happening, but I am not. There too many good things that mean more than that. Everyone focuses on the negative probably because its easier to remember the bad, but shouldn't happy moments be those that come to mind first?
Yesterday was the first time in a while in which I just felt good. I spent the entire day with my boyfriend and just hung out. I know I sound like a broken record but he's really amazing. He is with out a doubt the perfect match for me besides he's unneccessary bursts of energy (lol).
I'm happy to say that I am already meeting friends in UAlbany. Her name is Claritza and she has one of the greatest personalities ever! Despite the fact she's a giant, I've only really talked to her a hand full of times but she's just soo cool. Yesterday I couldn't stop laughing talking to her. We vibe off each other which is cool. I think we're going to have a great time in Albany together.
This week I've realized the meaning of friends. The one person that has been on my mind is Rando. Although I am not religious or anything, he is the only person I know that can be considered an angel. I really don't know where this kid comes from ! He has the biggest heart anyone can have and I'm going to miss him so much. It's a shame that we never spoke until this year but I've seen him undergo so much pain, but yet he is still as strong as can be. I wish I had the strength he pursues. He is honestly amazing and anyone should be greatful for his friendship. I really love this guy and I'm sure we will stay friends.
Yesterday was the first time in a while in which I just felt good. I spent the entire day with my boyfriend and just hung out. I know I sound like a broken record but he's really amazing. He is with out a doubt the perfect match for me besides he's unneccessary bursts of energy (lol).
I'm happy to say that I am already meeting friends in UAlbany. Her name is Claritza and she has one of the greatest personalities ever! Despite the fact she's a giant, I've only really talked to her a hand full of times but she's just soo cool. Yesterday I couldn't stop laughing talking to her. We vibe off each other which is cool. I think we're going to have a great time in Albany together.
This week I've realized the meaning of friends. The one person that has been on my mind is Rando. Although I am not religious or anything, he is the only person I know that can be considered an angel. I really don't know where this kid comes from ! He has the biggest heart anyone can have and I'm going to miss him so much. It's a shame that we never spoke until this year but I've seen him undergo so much pain, but yet he is still as strong as can be. I wish I had the strength he pursues. He is honestly amazing and anyone should be greatful for his friendship. I really love this guy and I'm sure we will stay friends.
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