Redemption

I've had a pretty good day today I have to admit. Despite the hours I spent doing work, I feel pretty accomplished and satisfied, though there's a pile of papers sitting next to me that I haven't tackled yet. :(

I really hate hiding things, let alone being "phony". I'd rather show what I'm feeling but as we all know, wearing your heart on your sleeve gets you no where.

It's amazing to see how certain situations can have an everlasting affect on someone despite if you acknowledge them or not. I guess I'm coming to the conclusion that everything that goes unspoken about is unfortunately taking a huge tole on me now. I guess now that I'm older and mature I've realized that there's nothing to do but talk about them, accept them and let it go; being me nothing's really easy.

I know I'm a pessimist and I tend to dwell on the negative most of the time but when I say I'm forever grateful for the things I have and the people who are there for me I truly mean it.

On a random side note, Four Loko's have been banned in New York State. Am I upset? Absolutely not but clearly our government has put a hierarchy on the negative things you can consume. It's okay to give smoke cigarettes, which cause all types of cancers but not other things. (I'm clearly playing the devil's advocate here)

Until Next Time.....