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WOW. If my blog we're a baby it would be dead by now. I've neglected it too much probably because everything that's going on. I don't even know where to start.

For one HIGH SCHOOL is over. Senior Picnic was amazing despite its down sides but overall I had so much fun (like always). Graduation was entertaining, thanks to those who have a sense of humor that is beyond funny. It wasn't until those laughs that I released how much I'm going to miss RFK. I left with kind of a negative attitude due to some events but I've realized that I would never choose another place to spend my high school years. The friends that I've made that are still here today can never be replaced. The experiences that I've undergone have ultimately made me who I am and as corny as it seems, it's because of RFK. I will truely miss everyone and I hope that we keep in touch.

Now for the sad part, unfortunately this is my last week in NYC for a month. My summer is more than cut in half and I'm sadden at the fact that I'll miss everything. I'll miss the daily visits to the beach, I'll miss Ergin and Arsen always fighting over which country is better (Russia or Albania), I'll miss Rando's sweet gestures and real ways of life, I'll miss Vero's moments, her laugh and even more her being an amazing friend, I'll miss Ergin's disgusting conversations of "hot blonde girls" (or maybe I won't ), but most of all I'll miss my Mom and my boyfriend. I don't know how I'm going to last a month with out you. Kwame I'm going to miss everything about you. All the laughs we have. You are amazing and I wouldn't trade you for anything. :( I just want to have as much fun this week with everyone I love and care about.

In life there are always changes one can not avoid. I for one always avoid change because the meaning of it may be unknown. But today I am proud of myself because I am making my own changes. I myself have learned to not put up with things. There are too many people in the world out there that may be even more amazing that I can relate to and share a friendship. For that reason I have decided to let go of a friendship that is obviously becoming something no one expected it would be. It is unbelievable how people change with one variable to there life. How people become someone else and act extremely selfish to world and the people they know in it. Although I am sadden by this I feel it is the best because no one is supposed to live a repetetive life (isn't that why we learn history?). I am extremly proud of myself for making such a change because if you know me well enough you know that I do not like it at all. For once I am taking a risk which seems like a great choice. No one is replaceable and the experiences I have undergone can never be erased but there are some people that just don't belong and in the future we will see the outcome. All I can say is that I believe I've been an okay friend. All I can do is try, but when one doesn't receive the same in return its obviously a sign.

So I am done. I don't want to write about this anymore, consider it a goodbye.

You Win Some... You Lose Some

It's been awhile since I've written. There has been too many things going on, but I finally have some time to.
There's a lot to update you about so I'll just start now.

Last week was prom. It seems like forever. Fortunately it was more than what I expected. I had an amazing time and I know I would've regret it if I hadn't gone. Despite our laughs, tears and yawns it was an amazing night which went too fast. I still have not recovered yet lol

Last Sunday I went out to eat with my second family. Kwame's mom is honestly too nice to me. I'm, glad I don't have to worrying about her disliking me. We went to City Island and had a great time. There was wayy too much food but it was delicous. Tuesday I went to go take care of Kwame because he was sick. He is even more stubborn when he's sick but we had fun. It's been great to spend time with my boyfriend other than one day a week. Thursday we went to see an Alvin and Ailey performance which was magical. I respect all dancers and the amount of strength and passion they put into their performances. It was honestly an amazing show.

Yesterday my friends and I went to see Pelom 123. Denzel Washington has always been an amazing actor. This is a must see and I'm glad I saw it.

The main reason I haven't written in my blog is because I don't really want to hurt peoples feelings by the things I wanna say, but honestly I don't care anymore. I hate to end this entry on a bad note but some things have to be said or they'll drive you crazy. For one I have decided that its time to cut people off. I'm tired of the repetition of how a selective people or maybe just one person. Sometimes the closets people to you can become the furthest with the change of one variable. I'm tired of the same people making excuses as to why we don't hang out or why we don't see each other when the real reason is their priorities don't include me. I wish people could be as real as me and just say how they feel. Just eliminate all the bull shit and just say it. I don't want to her lame ass excuses anymore. I've excepted them for far too long. I'd rather people just tell me the truth.

As the days begin to dwindle and my time here shortens, I'm starting to see the people who really care. I finally see what real friendship is and who values me the most. Thank you to those who have proven to me who care. Thoughs who haven't and who this entry is about your world will sooner or later shake up. Remember nothings stays perfect forever.