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I feel like an asshole, because I don't feel like an asshole if that makes any sense. I wouldn't say that I've been using someone technically because I haven't asked for anything.

I've explained to him that I don't want him. I don't want to be anything with him now or the future but he sticks around. I don't know if he thinks that one day I will, but I could care less.

I have no feelings for him at all; he's just there when I need him to be. When ever I feel lonely, or I want some attention I know that if I call/text him he'll be there. Sometimes I feel bad because that's what I think he thinks about me. I'll always be there waiting for him. If he needs anything, I'll always be willing to do something for him.

I'm going to have to eventually let this guy go. I haven't done anything wrong, but I can't live with myself sometimes. I'm not gaining anything more but a bitter soul.