Looking back besides my complaints and feelings I've had an okay weekend. I say this because I'm sure that someone else probably experienced something worse than I did. So I'm grateful for the good things that have occurred.
Yesterday I finally saw In The Heights which was an amazing play. It was exciting, intriging and most of all fun. I definitely bought the soundtrack so I will definitely over play these songs :) After the play, my Aunt and I went to an Italian restaurant. The owner of the place reminded me so much of my friend Ergin. I guess most Albanians have an outgoing personality. He was really funny but a little bit too talkative.
After that I went home and decided to go to my sisters house. Yes for those of you who don't know I have a younger half sister. It's a long story, but family's family right? I wanna try and hang out with her before I leave. I feel proud to be setting a good example for her, as corny as it may seem. Besides that we just had a lot of funny.
That's my weekend for the most part. I have to say I am so HAPPY my boyfriend's coming home today. It's been a long 4 days being unable to talk that much. I miss him so much :(
4 days until prom, excited?
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Irreplacable?
Today I woke up in a really crappy mood which impacted most of the day I spent in school. I think it's because I haven't really talked to my boyfriend for the past two days. I've talked to him every single day since I've met him so I'm not used to this at all. I'm probably still in a crappy mood because there's so many things I want to say that I can not. That's where Kwame or Veronica comes into play in my life. Kwame and Veronica are my diaries who are both ironically on a trip or in another country. They keep my life balanced because the offer something that many people do not : advice. They listen to me and understand where I am coming from. Because they are both gone and I can't really talk to them I feel so lonely.
Moving on, today in school was extremely boring. Almost every senior was in the media room doing their Gildea project. Since I am such an awesome person/friend I completed mine the night before but stayed in school later to help some friends with theirs, which ended up pissing me off but I'm not going to get into that. After that I left school alone, got something to eat then headed home to go to the city with my Mom. I never really hang out with my Mom so it was a relatively good day. I don't think my Mom realizes how much I love her. I'm going to miss her so much when I leave for college but I'll save the tears and sorrows until then.
Speaking of college, I can't help but feel like I've already left. People including family, friends and even my dog. I feel left out of things which makes me feel worst because wouldn't you try and spend the most time you could with a person if you knew they were leaving in almost a month? I don't mean every breathing moment, but atleast a decent amount of time excluded school. I feel like my importance in peoples lives have diminshed. I'd rather be gone then see this but at the same time people still have to live with or without you. I guess perhaps I am replacable.
Moving on, today in school was extremely boring. Almost every senior was in the media room doing their Gildea project. Since I am such an awesome person/friend I completed mine the night before but stayed in school later to help some friends with theirs, which ended up pissing me off but I'm not going to get into that. After that I left school alone, got something to eat then headed home to go to the city with my Mom. I never really hang out with my Mom so it was a relatively good day. I don't think my Mom realizes how much I love her. I'm going to miss her so much when I leave for college but I'll save the tears and sorrows until then.
Speaking of college, I can't help but feel like I've already left. People including family, friends and even my dog. I feel left out of things which makes me feel worst because wouldn't you try and spend the most time you could with a person if you knew they were leaving in almost a month? I don't mean every breathing moment, but atleast a decent amount of time excluded school. I feel like my importance in peoples lives have diminshed. I'd rather be gone then see this but at the same time people still have to live with or without you. I guess perhaps I am replacable.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Bitter Sweet
Tonight was the annual Sports Awards Dinner at my school. It's a way of getting all the teams at RFK together and honoring or rewarding thoughs who deserve it. However I can't help but feel tonight that this was not upheld.
Yes, I am bitter for not winning an award only because I know I deserved one. I can understand why I didn't win anything for Volleyball. Mainly because there's always going to be that one person that kisses so much ass that you can't help but consider them, but for tennis I'm really shocked.
I put so much time and energy into this years season it was ridiculous. Most of the time I felt like the coach, the manager, a player and the mascot because I had so many responsibilities because the other senior on the team couldn't. I devoted my time to doing practically everything and I'm upset that despite how much I do, I never get a thank you or any recognition. I remember calling my boyfriend after a game hysterically crying because I was so stressed out that I had no help. Everything was left for me to do. It's a shame that so many people get things that they honestly don't deserve. No, I'm not being a sore loser nor am I being a brat, I'm just telling the truth.
As I think about tonight, I start to care less because honestly I feel like I don't really need the recognition or the materialistic award because I know what I've accomplished. I'm actually kind of glad another person got the ward because maybe they need that extra confidence, but why at my expense? It just hurts to know that you've busted your ass for almost close to nothing. I'm glad I will never have to play an RFK sport again.
How would you feel?
Yes, I am bitter for not winning an award only because I know I deserved one. I can understand why I didn't win anything for Volleyball. Mainly because there's always going to be that one person that kisses so much ass that you can't help but consider them, but for tennis I'm really shocked.
I put so much time and energy into this years season it was ridiculous. Most of the time I felt like the coach, the manager, a player and the mascot because I had so many responsibilities because the other senior on the team couldn't. I devoted my time to doing practically everything and I'm upset that despite how much I do, I never get a thank you or any recognition. I remember calling my boyfriend after a game hysterically crying because I was so stressed out that I had no help. Everything was left for me to do. It's a shame that so many people get things that they honestly don't deserve. No, I'm not being a sore loser nor am I being a brat, I'm just telling the truth.
As I think about tonight, I start to care less because honestly I feel like I don't really need the recognition or the materialistic award because I know what I've accomplished. I'm actually kind of glad another person got the ward because maybe they need that extra confidence, but why at my expense? It just hurts to know that you've busted your ass for almost close to nothing. I'm glad I will never have to play an RFK sport again.
How would you feel?
Lovely Weekend
Almost every person in America has a bbq or goes to the beach on Memorial Day. I happened to do both :)
Yesterday I had a bbq/picnic with my boyfriend and his family. OF course meeting the parents is usual a nice thing but I'll admit I was kind of afraid. lol The day went by pretty well though. We went to the beach, played basketball, football, and baseball. I think my boyfriend loves how I'm not one of those girly girls who worry about braking a nail or getting dirty. We had a great time. After that we went miniature golfing and of course I won. Although Kwame has golfed several times I beat him fair and square. For my first time I did pretty well. Following that his Mom & her boyfriend drove me home and met my dad. They had a good conversation as I showed Kwame around my boring neighborhood. I'm glad that our parents got to talk and meet each other. I think they'll get along.
Since then I'm in a pretty good mood. Everything seems to be going well with my personal life. There are just a few things that can be changed with some other people. Overall I'm just happy that yesterday went by so smoothly.
Yesterday I had a bbq/picnic with my boyfriend and his family. OF course meeting the parents is usual a nice thing but I'll admit I was kind of afraid. lol The day went by pretty well though. We went to the beach, played basketball, football, and baseball. I think my boyfriend loves how I'm not one of those girly girls who worry about braking a nail or getting dirty. We had a great time. After that we went miniature golfing and of course I won. Although Kwame has golfed several times I beat him fair and square. For my first time I did pretty well. Following that his Mom & her boyfriend drove me home and met my dad. They had a good conversation as I showed Kwame around my boring neighborhood. I'm glad that our parents got to talk and meet each other. I think they'll get along.
Since then I'm in a pretty good mood. Everything seems to be going well with my personal life. There are just a few things that can be changed with some other people. Overall I'm just happy that yesterday went by so smoothly.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Too Early, but Blog
It's about 8:00 in the morning and I'm still tired, but since I can not fall back asleep I've decided to write a little. Let's talk about the last few events that have happen.
Friday, I took the AP English Literature and Comp. Exam. To my surprise it was pretty easy. I stressed over that test for a while but I'm happy that I feel confident in myself. I'm sure I'll get a good grade on it.
Yesterday my friends and I went to Central Park. It was a cheesy Picnic to celebrate Mike's birthday which ended up being a great day. We played foot ball, ate some sandwiches and just chilled. I love how we can do the simplest things and still have as much fun as someone that went on a 1,000 shopping spree. They are all caring, respectful and open minded which makes them all great people.
I've just noticed that in the blogs I have written I have failed to say anything about my boyfriend, which is odd because he is probably the second most important person in my life. I think that if you're ever in a relationship with someone it should be productive. There's no need for expensive gifts that "symbolize" your love or other things that may seem unnecessary. What I love about him is how he is so much like me but then again he's not. We share the characteristics like being outgoing and energetic but then we are very different. I feel like our relationship is productive because we learn from each other. He teaches me to be suddle person and to say things with out provoking so much anger and I teach him to speak up and say how he feels. He's a passive aggressive person so even though he might be upset or not agree with something, he'll just sit there out of respect for you and just take it. I wish I had the strength to do this sometimes but then again if I changed completely the Casie that everyone knows of wouldn't be the same. He is the ONLY person who it ALWAYS there for me to talk, cry or spill out what ever's upsetting me. I always say I don't know where I found him from because if there is a perfect, he's pretty much close. Leaving him to go to college will definitely be hard but even through the hardships I know we'll prevail.
Moving on to other things, Prom is about a week and a half away and I am still not excited. I don't know what it is. I have a great group of friends that I'm sure we'll have a lot of fun, but I still feel indifferent. It's supposed to be "The Night of Your Life" but I think that's an overstatement.
I guess we'll have to see what happens.
Friday, I took the AP English Literature and Comp. Exam. To my surprise it was pretty easy. I stressed over that test for a while but I'm happy that I feel confident in myself. I'm sure I'll get a good grade on it.
Yesterday my friends and I went to Central Park. It was a cheesy Picnic to celebrate Mike's birthday which ended up being a great day. We played foot ball, ate some sandwiches and just chilled. I love how we can do the simplest things and still have as much fun as someone that went on a 1,000 shopping spree. They are all caring, respectful and open minded which makes them all great people.
I've just noticed that in the blogs I have written I have failed to say anything about my boyfriend, which is odd because he is probably the second most important person in my life. I think that if you're ever in a relationship with someone it should be productive. There's no need for expensive gifts that "symbolize" your love or other things that may seem unnecessary. What I love about him is how he is so much like me but then again he's not. We share the characteristics like being outgoing and energetic but then we are very different. I feel like our relationship is productive because we learn from each other. He teaches me to be suddle person and to say things with out provoking so much anger and I teach him to speak up and say how he feels. He's a passive aggressive person so even though he might be upset or not agree with something, he'll just sit there out of respect for you and just take it. I wish I had the strength to do this sometimes but then again if I changed completely the Casie that everyone knows of wouldn't be the same. He is the ONLY person who it ALWAYS there for me to talk, cry or spill out what ever's upsetting me. I always say I don't know where I found him from because if there is a perfect, he's pretty much close. Leaving him to go to college will definitely be hard but even through the hardships I know we'll prevail.
Moving on to other things, Prom is about a week and a half away and I am still not excited. I don't know what it is. I have a great group of friends that I'm sure we'll have a lot of fun, but I still feel indifferent. It's supposed to be "The Night of Your Life" but I think that's an overstatement.
I guess we'll have to see what happens.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Starting Over
This week there's a lot of stuff that's been happening that I'm just in the middle of. I try to make everyone happy, or try to atleast fix situations but in the end I am ultimately looked upon as being someone who is in it for no good.
I'm tired of being in situations because someone is doing something to someonelse who just happens to be loved and respected by people that I am close with. I'm just going to take a seat and sip some lemonade because I'm tired of stressing myself out by protecting people. Some people just have to learn that others may that the people you claim are
'"causing rucus " are actually trying to help, but maybe not you.
Seondly this week I've learned who real friends are. Real friends are thoughs people who look out for wyou no matter what. They try to save you from being hurt in any possible way, especially when you know someones past. I just wanna thank those of you who know your my friend. It's been a stressful week and we all need to just support each other.
Lastly, I have to admitt that I am happy to be leaving for college. Yes, I will miss some people but this is life. You move on to different steps that will take you further, leaving behind some extra baggage. I think this was one of the best decis ions I've made in my life. I need to get away and just leave some stuff behind. I need to test exactly what kind of people I've been dealing with these past couple of years and see which people actually care. I would never know that if I stayed or went to college with some of my friends. I need to know how to make new friends and meet new people and learn to make decisions on my own without someone trying to influence me other wise.
So let's start the countdown 45 more days.
I'm tired of being in situations because someone is doing something to someonelse who just happens to be loved and respected by people that I am close with. I'm just going to take a seat and sip some lemonade because I'm tired of stressing myself out by protecting people. Some people just have to learn that others may that the people you claim are
'"causing rucus " are actually trying to help, but maybe not you.
Seondly this week I've learned who real friends are. Real friends are thoughs people who look out for wyou no matter what. They try to save you from being hurt in any possible way, especially when you know someones past. I just wanna thank those of you who know your my friend. It's been a stressful week and we all need to just support each other.
Lastly, I have to admitt that I am happy to be leaving for college. Yes, I will miss some people but this is life. You move on to different steps that will take you further, leaving behind some extra baggage. I think this was one of the best decis ions I've made in my life. I need to get away and just leave some stuff behind. I need to test exactly what kind of people I've been dealing with these past couple of years and see which people actually care. I would never know that if I stayed or went to college with some of my friends. I need to know how to make new friends and meet new people and learn to make decisions on my own without someone trying to influence me other wise.
So let's start the countdown 45 more days.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
something new
Blogging, according to my best friend Jen is a way to release your emotions and just say everything that's on your mind. It's that "person" or "people" who are always there to make the right comment or suggestion. Her suggestion to me is to create one ( no, really?)
I'm not completely sure how to go about starting this so I'll just write anything for now. My name is Casie Addison. I'm a senior at Robert. F. Kennedy High School. I am extremely sarcastic, funny and maybe loud sometimes lol. I think I have a great sense of humor and I try to lighten every situation. I love to play sports and just do things people wouldn't normally consider as fun. In some ways I can be described as weird because I don't watch t.v nor do I write in blue ink. These are just a few habits of mine. My favorite color is fuchsia and even if I ate an entire cow I would still make room for some Cold stone. Like every person in the world I have gone through situations and problems that no one deserves, but life moves on. Besides the negative things that have happened I am extremely grateful for the things that I have.
I have a best friend in the whole wide world that actually completes me. You're probably thinking "'sure everyone says that" or "they won't last long" but it's more than that.
Jennifer-Lee Pang is THE only person that tells me the truth no matter what. Whether I'm right or wrong she makes sure that I know the difference, but at the same time she supports every stupid idea, bad decision or absolute crazy plan I have next. Have you ever felt like there's one person that you just can't live without? Like if you didn't talk to them for a day it seemed that your whole world had just been turned upside down? Well that's how I feel about her. No matter what situation I'm in I know she's the only dependable person I have in my life besides my Mom. Despite the two years we have been close, she knows me far better than those that I've known for years. If I could I would say thank her every second for the things she's done for me but knowing her she would probably beat me up or start crying. Jennifer if your reading this, you already know. :)
So I guess this will complete my first blog post. There is surely more to come.....
I'm not completely sure how to go about starting this so I'll just write anything for now. My name is Casie Addison. I'm a senior at Robert. F. Kennedy High School. I am extremely sarcastic, funny and maybe loud sometimes lol. I think I have a great sense of humor and I try to lighten every situation. I love to play sports and just do things people wouldn't normally consider as fun. In some ways I can be described as weird because I don't watch t.v nor do I write in blue ink. These are just a few habits of mine. My favorite color is fuchsia and even if I ate an entire cow I would still make room for some Cold stone. Like every person in the world I have gone through situations and problems that no one deserves, but life moves on. Besides the negative things that have happened I am extremely grateful for the things that I have.
I have a best friend in the whole wide world that actually completes me. You're probably thinking "'sure everyone says that" or "they won't last long" but it's more than that.
Jennifer-Lee Pang is THE only person that tells me the truth no matter what. Whether I'm right or wrong she makes sure that I know the difference, but at the same time she supports every stupid idea, bad decision or absolute crazy plan I have next. Have you ever felt like there's one person that you just can't live without? Like if you didn't talk to them for a day it seemed that your whole world had just been turned upside down? Well that's how I feel about her. No matter what situation I'm in I know she's the only dependable person I have in my life besides my Mom. Despite the two years we have been close, she knows me far better than those that I've known for years. If I could I would say thank her every second for the things she's done for me but knowing her she would probably beat me up or start crying. Jennifer if your reading this, you already know. :)
So I guess this will complete my first blog post. There is surely more to come.....
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