Irreplacable?

Today I woke up in a really crappy mood which impacted most of the day I spent in school. I think it's because I haven't really talked to my boyfriend for the past two days. I've talked to him every single day since I've met him so I'm not used to this at all. I'm probably still in a crappy mood because there's so many things I want to say that I can not. That's where Kwame or Veronica comes into play in my life. Kwame and Veronica are my diaries who are both ironically on a trip or in another country. They keep my life balanced because the offer something that many people do not : advice. They listen to me and understand where I am coming from. Because they are both gone and I can't really talk to them I feel so lonely.

Moving on, today in school was extremely boring. Almost every senior was in the media room doing their Gildea project. Since I am such an awesome person/friend I completed mine the night before but stayed in school later to help some friends with theirs, which ended up pissing me off but I'm not going to get into that. After that I left school alone, got something to eat then headed home to go to the city with my Mom. I never really hang out with my Mom so it was a relatively good day. I don't think my Mom realizes how much I love her. I'm going to miss her so much when I leave for college but I'll save the tears and sorrows until then.

Speaking of college, I can't help but feel like I've already left. People including family, friends and even my dog. I feel left out of things which makes me feel worst because wouldn't you try and spend the most time you could with a person if you knew they were leaving in almost a month? I don't mean every breathing moment, but atleast a decent amount of time excluded school. I feel like my importance in peoples lives have diminshed. I'd rather be gone then see this but at the same time people still have to live with or without you. I guess perhaps I am replacable.