Bitter Sweet

Tonight was the annual Sports Awards Dinner at my school. It's a way of getting all the teams at RFK together and honoring or rewarding thoughs who deserve it. However I can't help but feel tonight that this was not upheld.

Yes, I am bitter for not winning an award only because I know I deserved one. I can understand why I didn't win anything for Volleyball. Mainly because there's always going to be that one person that kisses so much ass that you can't help but consider them, but for tennis I'm really shocked.

I put so much time and energy into this years season it was ridiculous. Most of the time I felt like the coach, the manager, a player and the mascot because I had so many responsibilities because the other senior on the team couldn't. I devoted my time to doing practically everything and I'm upset that despite how much I do, I never get a thank you or any recognition. I remember calling my boyfriend after a game hysterically crying because I was so stressed out that I had no help. Everything was left for me to do. It's a shame that so many people get things that they honestly don't deserve. No, I'm not being a sore loser nor am I being a brat, I'm just telling the truth.

As I think about tonight, I start to care less because honestly I feel like I don't really need the recognition or the materialistic award because I know what I've accomplished. I'm actually kind of glad another person got the ward because maybe they need that extra confidence, but why at my expense? It just hurts to know that you've busted your ass for almost close to nothing. I'm glad I will never have to play an RFK sport again.

How would you feel?