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I woke up this morning in a really good mood. I actually got some sleep thanks to Kwame :). He stayed on the phone with me all night, even when I fell asleep. Idk I guess it just makes me feel more comfortable because like I said before I can't sleep if there's no one in my room. (Yes I'm a weirdo). So I decided to change around my layout and just fool around with it. The picture that's above my blog entry is of Albany's skyline. I forgot what day I took it but I thought it was really beautiful. I hope you enjoy it yourself.

Anyways, I was thinking yesterday about how untalented I am. I have some friends who do amazing things ! Playing guitar, creative writing, painting and I on the other hand have no type of talent. Someone asked me "What can you do?" and I simply replied "Talk, write some what, play sports and make people laugh occasionally".To me that just sounds like the average person. I don't want to be average ! I want to be someone who's just incredible. Like they know their calling and their going after it. I'm stuck here in Albany completely lost. I have no idea what I wanna be or what I wanna do with my life. I just want a sign? Maybe even a push? It's just becomming something that's just irritating because I know it affects the rest of my life. Some people say they just want to be successful. To me it's more than that. Life's about doing things that you enjoy doing, that you know your meant to do, not just about how much money you make off of it.

As I sit here completely frustrated with myself I just don't know what to think anymore. I need to find my calling as corny as it may seem.

Yesterday I forgot to add that I watched this video that someone posted on my wall. I am not very religious but it definitely opened my eyes a little to those kind of things. It has an amazing story line, but the ending I didn't really enjoy. If you get the time watch it. It actually has some meaning.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piuoGb-Nhfw