5 Leaf Clover

Yesterday was another extremely long day for me. 4 classes that went by slower than a turtle. I had my first exam in African American Literature and I'm so upset that I got 4 wrong. I really felt like crying. I studied my ass off, just because I know I have a terrible memory and look how things ended up? But I'm definitely not going to dwell on it, there's always an extra credit assignment.

Today, luckily, I have NO classes :) My English is cancelled until next week and I just didn't really feel like going to American Politics. Instead I went to the mall and bought some long sleeve shirts and a pair of sunglasses because it's freezing in Albany. The weather here is completely bipolar. There's no point in watching the news anymore.

Last night was probably the hardest nights for me. I guess crying myself to sleep seems like a new method. One of my roommates always says that "humans will always dissappoint you, no matter what" and I think I went above and beyond that. To make someone feel so much pain is just inhumane. I never ever want to hear someone cry so much over me; especially when I'mnot worth it. I basically had an ephiphany last night, realizing that I myself need way more changes than some other people. I was ready to let go of something that has only benefited me because of my selfishness. I'm truely sorry and I hope you forgive me. In so many ways I'm lucky to have you.

The rest of the day will probably be pretty laid back. I'm probably just going to study, clean my room and around 7ish I have a S.I.K meeting. I think I deserve to relax a little. This weekend as always there are like 90000000000000000 parties. I'm actually considering going to one. Yes people clap !