NYE

There was something really odd about the way I was feeling yesterday. I don't know what it was and I know it may seem cliche, but I really had an epiphany last night. Though I not very religious, I feel like God flashed this year back so I could see all the unecessary things/people I've dwelled on; talk about creepy. I'm not going to go into detail because it's something I can't explain. I only know how it feels.

I've come to the conclusion that there are many things I don't like about myself. I've realized that a lot of the things that I hold on to contribute to my anxiety, my bitterness and anger. I guess I just have to except things as they are and learn to just forgive. Despite it all I woke up this morning in such a blissful mood, though it's already been soured by being home.

I'm really trying to learn why I take things so personally. Why I make things my business that aren't necessarily mine and why I care so much. I guess I just have high expectations for life.

When the clock struck 12, I felt all together as if I knew exactly who I was. I really wish I could relive that moment again.