WOW it's been awhile but I promise to blog more ! Scout's Honor !
So it's been what? Two weeks since I've updated this and surprisingly not much as gone on. Last weekend, like a "looser" I stayed in my dorm and around campus and just chilled. I don't know what it is, but I stilled To make matters worse day 2 of tryouts are tomorrow and I'm not sure if I wanna go. I love playing Volleyball and being competitive but my physical state is not at its best. I wish I had recorded the tryout so everyone could see it. It was seriously really really intense.
Yesterday was my grandma's 80th birthday party ! It was actually a lot of fun thanks to animated Kwame. I think its great to see a legacy who has lived through only God knows. I love my grandma and I had a lot of fun celebrating her birthday with my family.
Right now I am on the Greyhound heading back to UA. I'm actually happy to be going back but skeptical as to what my room looks like. I wonder if people are as rude as I think they are, but I'll know in a few hours.
P.S : I'm not a Scout ;)
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Saturday, September 5, 2009
There's No Place Like Home
It's been practically a full week that I've been in UA and I have to say that i've learned a lot about people and even more myself. Before going into that let me give you a break down of my classes.
So my prospective major is Political Science and i'm already thinking about changing it. I have American Politics, English, Math, Afro-American Literature and of course Freshman Experience. I love my schedule ! Everyday except Wednesday my classes end at 1:30. Wednesdays the only day that I have more than 2 classes and I end at 5:35, but I always have a break in between classes. My American Politics class seems like a bore. I had to buy two books for 115 and my professors not even going to be using them in lectures. I think its pointless but were still responsible for reading the texts. Theres about around 400 kids in that class. I'm in one of Albany's biggest Lecture Centers but thankfully I sit in the front. If only my professor could be a little more intriging, life would be so much better. On a better note, I love my Afro-American Literature class. Despite the 8 books i had to buy, Professor Slade is pretty amazing. He's funny, engaging and definitely knows how to appeal to our generation. Although I've only had one class thus far I really like him. He's a pretty cool teacher.
Besides Academics, life in Albany is crazy ! Last weekend I went to a house party which ended up being terrible. No I am not a party pooper. If you would've been there you would feel the same. Let's just say some white people are crazy. Most importantly I feel like I've become someone else or maybe the "real" side of me is uncovering. There's been so many opportunities to party, to drink, to potentially do drugs and although I have never been into that, surprisingly I'm starting to feel the peer pressure. It's crazy ! In high school I was the leader, now its completely different. I mean, of course this was expected but not at the levels in which its coming. Some of my friends party everyday, drink everyday, do drugs and it doesnt seem to affect. Some other people will get caught up in the same stuff like that just because everyone else is doing it. I know that I'm doing the right thing, but I don't wanna feel like the "goodie two shoes" you know? I don't wanna seem like the party pooper, but I think the 1st party I went to just threw off my outlook.
It's also a matter of who you trust. Honestly, I wouldn't even consume a sip of alcohol in a place I'm inaware of and around people who might not have your back. If I don't feel safe, forget it. Now I have some upper-classmen friends thanks to Brian, and most of the time I feel safer with them because they know where to go, who not to speak to or what places are gonna be like. Maybe I'm just overly paranoid but w/e.
Earlier this week I conquered my fear of being lost (lol) I was in Downtown Albany by myself because my roommate couldn't come along so I decided to be risky. I asked the bus driver, for directions and she gave me the wrong ones ! So I'm walking dowtown about to panic when I remembered I had GPS on my phone. So I typed in the address, and followed the signs of streets there. Now thoughs of you that are reading this and thinking "Wow, this doesn't sound like much of an accomplishment", it seriously is. There's this stereotype of Albany, that even I had that it was just a pretty place. There's no ghettos, no hood people. Basically Albany does NOT go hard. I was completely surprised ! I was in hood of all hoods. And I did not panic which is a major accomplishment lol
Surprisingly, I don't really miss anyone from home besides Kwame, Midnight ( my dog) and my friends. Not having the opportunity to roam around finding things to do with my crew has made me pretty home sick. I seriously miss going to the city, and doing civilized but fun things. I can't wait to go home next weekend. It's my grandma's 80th Birthday Party and I get to see everyone.
So my prospective major is Political Science and i'm already thinking about changing it. I have American Politics, English, Math, Afro-American Literature and of course Freshman Experience. I love my schedule ! Everyday except Wednesday my classes end at 1:30. Wednesdays the only day that I have more than 2 classes and I end at 5:35, but I always have a break in between classes. My American Politics class seems like a bore. I had to buy two books for 115 and my professors not even going to be using them in lectures. I think its pointless but were still responsible for reading the texts. Theres about around 400 kids in that class. I'm in one of Albany's biggest Lecture Centers but thankfully I sit in the front. If only my professor could be a little more intriging, life would be so much better. On a better note, I love my Afro-American Literature class. Despite the 8 books i had to buy, Professor Slade is pretty amazing. He's funny, engaging and definitely knows how to appeal to our generation. Although I've only had one class thus far I really like him. He's a pretty cool teacher.
Besides Academics, life in Albany is crazy ! Last weekend I went to a house party which ended up being terrible. No I am not a party pooper. If you would've been there you would feel the same. Let's just say some white people are crazy. Most importantly I feel like I've become someone else or maybe the "real" side of me is uncovering. There's been so many opportunities to party, to drink, to potentially do drugs and although I have never been into that, surprisingly I'm starting to feel the peer pressure. It's crazy ! In high school I was the leader, now its completely different. I mean, of course this was expected but not at the levels in which its coming. Some of my friends party everyday, drink everyday, do drugs and it doesnt seem to affect. Some other people will get caught up in the same stuff like that just because everyone else is doing it. I know that I'm doing the right thing, but I don't wanna feel like the "goodie two shoes" you know? I don't wanna seem like the party pooper, but I think the 1st party I went to just threw off my outlook.
It's also a matter of who you trust. Honestly, I wouldn't even consume a sip of alcohol in a place I'm inaware of and around people who might not have your back. If I don't feel safe, forget it. Now I have some upper-classmen friends thanks to Brian, and most of the time I feel safer with them because they know where to go, who not to speak to or what places are gonna be like. Maybe I'm just overly paranoid but w/e.
Earlier this week I conquered my fear of being lost (lol) I was in Downtown Albany by myself because my roommate couldn't come along so I decided to be risky. I asked the bus driver, for directions and she gave me the wrong ones ! So I'm walking dowtown about to panic when I remembered I had GPS on my phone. So I typed in the address, and followed the signs of streets there. Now thoughs of you that are reading this and thinking "Wow, this doesn't sound like much of an accomplishment", it seriously is. There's this stereotype of Albany, that even I had that it was just a pretty place. There's no ghettos, no hood people. Basically Albany does NOT go hard. I was completely surprised ! I was in hood of all hoods. And I did not panic which is a major accomplishment lol
Surprisingly, I don't really miss anyone from home besides Kwame, Midnight ( my dog) and my friends. Not having the opportunity to roam around finding things to do with my crew has made me pretty home sick. I seriously miss going to the city, and doing civilized but fun things. I can't wait to go home next weekend. It's my grandma's 80th Birthday Party and I get to see everyone.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Time is Ticking
So it's 5 days until I head back out to Albany. I'm pretty confused about the way I feel. I love my life here but I just need to get away. I know I'm gonna miss everyone, but if friends are real friends they'll be there when I get back, right? That's the part that I'm unsure of but we'll see as time progress.
My last weekend in NYC actually sucked. I've been home sick for the past two days thanks to someone ;). Thankfully my mom's been home taking care of me. I'm really going to miss her soup and her ability to make me feel better. Yesterday was Rando's birthday. I'm really upset that I couldn't make it, but I have to make it up to him [ I have something in mind]. I doubt that he cares because he knows I love him to death, and he's all in love with Amanda. I'm really happy for him; he deserves it.
So instead of lying on the beach in Virginia with Kwame and his fam I'm stuck within these four white walls and my nose continues to run and I keep coughing. Great isn't it? Tomorrow I'm going out to eat with my Aunt Joan. Hopefully I won't be like this.
Besides dealing with my minor illness (haha, I've come to realize that regardless, YOU CAN NOT FIX EVERYTHING. I've tried too much, fought myself too long and I'm tired. On the bright side I have 136 family members in Albany that I know will be the support system I need. Which doesn't include our amazing EOP staff.
All I have to say is I'm finally ready.
My last weekend in NYC actually sucked. I've been home sick for the past two days thanks to someone ;). Thankfully my mom's been home taking care of me. I'm really going to miss her soup and her ability to make me feel better. Yesterday was Rando's birthday. I'm really upset that I couldn't make it, but I have to make it up to him [ I have something in mind]. I doubt that he cares because he knows I love him to death, and he's all in love with Amanda. I'm really happy for him; he deserves it.
So instead of lying on the beach in Virginia with Kwame and his fam I'm stuck within these four white walls and my nose continues to run and I keep coughing. Great isn't it? Tomorrow I'm going out to eat with my Aunt Joan. Hopefully I won't be like this.
Besides dealing with my minor illness (haha, I've come to realize that regardless, YOU CAN NOT FIX EVERYTHING. I've tried too much, fought myself too long and I'm tired. On the bright side I have 136 family members in Albany that I know will be the support system I need. Which doesn't include our amazing EOP staff.
All I have to say is I'm finally ready.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
I'm Back !
I'm am so happy to say that I am back in NYC ! Although those 5 weeks in UA were beyond tiresome, I've never been happier to meet a great group of people. I am forever thankful to have an additional 136 people added to my family. I'm not going to go in depth about it, because most of you will not understand the jokes nor the crazy songs we've made. It's something that only Summer '09 EOP students & SA's know about. It's almost like a secret society :).
So as of now I have 19 days left until I go back. Yes, I love it there but a part of me doesnt wanna leave. I'm going to miss everyone so much it's ridiculous, but I'm still excited about the fall ! So for the next 19 days, besides shopping, I'm going to spend as much time as I can with the people I love. I'll try and keep you updated. :)
So as of now I have 19 days left until I go back. Yes, I love it there but a part of me doesnt wanna leave. I'm going to miss everyone so much it's ridiculous, but I'm still excited about the fall ! So for the next 19 days, besides shopping, I'm going to spend as much time as I can with the people I love. I'll try and keep you updated. :)
I'm Back !
I'm am so happy to say that I am back in NYC ! Although those 5 weeks in UA were beyond tiresome, I've never been happier to meet a great group of people. I am forever thankful to have an additional 136 people added to my family. I'm not going to go in depth about it, because most of you will not understand the jokes nor the crazy songs we've made. It's something that only Summer '09 EOP students & SA's know about. It's almost like a secret society :).
So as of now I have 19 days left until I go back. Yes, I love it there but a part of me doesnt wanna leave. I'm going to miss everyone so much it's ridiculous, but I'm still excited about the fall ! So for the next 19 days, besides shopping, I'm going to spend as much time as I can with the people I love. I'll try and keep you updated. :)
So as of now I have 19 days left until I go back. Yes, I love it there but a part of me doesnt wanna leave. I'm going to miss everyone so much it's ridiculous, but I'm still excited about the fall ! So for the next 19 days, besides shopping, I'm going to spend as much time as I can with the people I love. I'll try and keep you updated. :)
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Climax
Yesterday and the past few weeks here in Albany, we've recieved so many lectures about being a part of this campus and the EOP program as whole. It wasn't until this morning that I realized that I love these people and our staff. I feel a true sense of unconditional love for the first time and anyone who knows me, knows that I am not good at goodbyes -___-. Friday, I come home to the life that I've always known still my feelings are full of emotions. Yes, I miss my family, my friends and the things we do but at the same time I know I'm going to miss the people here. They are just like me in so many ways and I've never felt more connected to a group of people this way before. Although I'm sad about it, I can't wait until August 27th.
Despite everything else I can honestly say, I'm just happy. I like the way things have gone thus far. Even though some things play out in a way you can never control, you have to learn not to regret them. Sooner or later you'll realize the reason why it happened and you'll get the message that someone wanted you to learn.
Yesterday we had a forum about what it means to be a "woman". I think that every female should have been there. It was amazing !, although someone had to say something inappropriately.
Life is not censored, so why should we be? Speak what's on your mind !
Despite everything else I can honestly say, I'm just happy. I like the way things have gone thus far. Even though some things play out in a way you can never control, you have to learn not to regret them. Sooner or later you'll realize the reason why it happened and you'll get the message that someone wanted you to learn.
Yesterday we had a forum about what it means to be a "woman". I think that every female should have been there. It was amazing !, although someone had to say something inappropriately.
Life is not censored, so why should we be? Speak what's on your mind !
Climax
Yesterday and the past few weeks here in Albany, we've recieved so many lectures about being a part of this campus and the EOP program as whole. It wasn't until this morning that I realized that I love these people and our staff. I feel a true sense of unconditional love for the first time and anyone who knows me, knows that I am not good at goodbyes -___-. Friday, I come home to the life that I've always known still my feelings are full of emotions. Yes, I miss my family, my friends and the things we do but at the same time I know I'm going to miss the people here. They are just like me in so many ways and I've never felt more connected to a group of people this way before. Although I'm sad about it, I can't wait until August 27th.
Despite everything else I can honestly say, I'm just happy. I like the way things have gone thus far. Even though some things play out in a way you can never control, you have to learn not to regret them. Sooner or later you'll realize the reason why it happened and you'll get the message that someone wanted you to learn.
Yesterday we had a forum about what it means to be a "woman". I think that every female should have been there. It was amazing !, although someone had to say something inappropriately.
Life is not censored, so why should we be? Speak what's on your mind !
Despite everything else I can honestly say, I'm just happy. I like the way things have gone thus far. Even though some things play out in a way you can never control, you have to learn not to regret them. Sooner or later you'll realize the reason why it happened and you'll get the message that someone wanted you to learn.
Yesterday we had a forum about what it means to be a "woman". I think that every female should have been there. It was amazing !, although someone had to say something inappropriately.
Life is not censored, so why should we be? Speak what's on your mind !
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